My Cotton Candy Bingo Board!

Huddling under covers Cut Crush / Infatuation Grandparents / Grandchildren Sleeping
Holidays Glowing with happiness Dedicating a song on the radio Cute Future
Congratulations Reading WILD CARD Clothes in closet, toothbrush by sink – already moved in together without noticing Singing in the shower
Childhood sweethearts Peace Night in Light Dreams
Friends become lovers Adulthood Lazy day
Laughter Playing music

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Ranty Today

So, as of Sunday evening, I found myself bleeding again. If, somehow, you're not aware, I have Ulcertive Colitis, which means that when I start bleeding, it's a very unpleasant thing. You can look up the wheres and hows and whys on your own. Wikipedia exists, dammit.

Having breakthrough bleeding now is especially concerning because my next Remicaid treatment isn't for another 2 weeks. If I were only a week away from my treatment, we could drop from 5 weeks to 4 and be done with it, but now I'm showing symptoms after only 3 weeks and I can't get infusions in any intervals shorter than 4 weeks. Since it's only blood and pain, my doctor hopes that it's a response to environmental things, like too much fiber in my diet and boldily tolls taken by the heat & stress, but, like so much with Remicaid, there's a lot of 'wait and see.' I'm to increase my Asacol up to 4 pills twice daily and hope that helps, because otherwise we might have to go back to mesalamine suppositories and fuck that right in the face.

Huh. The first time I was prescribed those, I couldn't even admit what the medication was. Is this personal growth? Or just an out-pouring of my 'enh, fuckit' mentality. WHO KNOWS?

After this upcoming Remicaid appointment, they'll all be scheduled for 4 week intervals instead of 5. Hopefully that's enough to keep me going, because otherwise, I'm off Remicaid and onto something else. My doctor outlined my possibilities for me back when I dropped from 7 weeks to 5 and they look fairly grim:

*Try Humira (30% of patients who stop responding to Remicaid respond to Humira)
*Ingest pig parasites (assuming insurance covers them and they're beyond the testing phase)
*Get surgery.

In all, these are not exciting options.

Right now, I'm in a small-to moderate amount of pain, like a 3-4 "resting" pain scale. The pain can spike, but I'm pretty solidly at a 3-4. It feels like lower back pain and--you know that pain you get when you're so hungry you feel kinda hollow and it hurts? I feel kinda like that. I'm also more tired than usual and need to rest more because, surprise! Pain and slight bleeding and attacking your own insides puts a strain on your body.

I'm hoping that in a day or two I can buck up and feel philosophical about all of this bullshit, but right now, I'm pissed off, grumpy, and hating on everything.

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via [profile] la_marquise_de_

The rules:

1. Go to page 77 (or 7th) of your current ms
2. Go to line 7
3. Copy down the next 7 lines – sentences or paragraphs – and post them as they’re written. No cheating.


Anyone who thinks children are innately good is a fool. Children lie, steal, cheat, and attempt to harm others in order to get what they want. Children are innocent and may not understand that to hit another child in order to get their toy or sweet roll is wrong and hurtful, but that innocence does not make them good. The other child’s desire to hit back is also innocent and understandable, but still does not come from a place of innate goodness. Empathy, compassion, and a desire to help others is a legacy adults pass along to the children in their lives, hopefully before the child is to old to absorb it.

No. Children are not innately good. They are simply educable.

Truth in advertising: This is actually the opening paragraph of my MS because I don't have anymore than that written. BUT I HAVE A NEW MS AND SO I WANTED TO PLAY.

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S-M-R-T explosion

Story Wars LARP apps

I app'd nine eight? different characters. I know that a good 1/3 of my sources are unknown to the GMs, but that didn't stop me, mostly because I enjoy being difficult.

Anyway, I app'd the following (in order of how badly I want this character):

Surreal, Black Jewels series. I can't tell you how much I want to play her. WHORE-ASSASSIN-WITCH. If the Black Jewels series were better known, I'd say she was my first pick. However, I don't think I'll get her. On the one hand? Sads. On the other? It possibly makes me more likely to get my next choice.

Natasha Romanoff, Avengers. It will be a crazy mashup of movieverse, comics, and a beautiful fic written by [personal profile] gyzym. WHATEVER, I DO WHAT I WANT. (And by that, I mean, what the GMs say). Anyway, gymnast assassin who manipulates people by using their own expectations (and her own vulnerabilities) against them? YES PLZ.

River Song, Doctor Who. River is AWESOME. And I was less than impressed with the way the show handled her upbringing. I think a few semesters at a crazy school might help her.

Emma Frost, Marvel 616. Breeding, darling. Top class breeding.

Glorianna Belladonna, Landscapes of Ephemera. Another character from an obscure canon. But her magic is fun, so...

Azula, Avatar: TLA. Powerful, cunning, scheming, and batshit crazy? I CAN PLAY THIS. No probs!

Vin, Mistborn Trilogy. Street rat pretending to be noble while working to bring down an evil empire with all the magics? TOTALLY NOT A TROPE OF MINE. RLY.

Jane Ellsworth, Shades of Milk and Honey. Probably the most obscure of my obscure canons and lowest on my list. Her magic is cool and who doesn't wanna be Lizzie Bennet with magic?

EDIT: People I should have app'd but did not (because I am an idiot)--

*LANA KANE FROM ARCHER (Hello and/or DUH, self!)


*Parker from Leverage

*Emily Thorne/Amanda Clark

I thought I app'd nine, but I can only think of eight right now. This might be because it's ridic o'clock in the morning for me. [personal profile] darkoni, who was my ninth? Or am I crazy and only app'd eight?

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Rough Day

So yesterday I--
*Drove to and from CT in the pouring rain, sharing the road with assholes,
*Made my mom cry (unintentionally)
*Got dragged to Wal*Mart, possibly in retaliation for the crying thing,
*Found out our tenant is potentially moving out as early as June,
*Got stung by a wasp. A dead wasp,
*Helped the husband deal with a leaking roof where 'deal' means 'fret, call roofers, throw down towels, hope for the best'
*Found out said moving tenant is actually racist ("[I don't]...want to sound racist, but there are a lot of Hispanics in the neighborhood.")

After all of that, I've decided I need something as a pickmeup. Personally, I drank a bit (black cherry rum 'n cokes, mmm), but in the vein of being more social and NOT drinking tomorrow when I get up, this is where I turn to you, gentle readers.


Sure, I have no money to buy new books, BUT WHATEVER. I like hearing about new things to read and samples are the best thing EVAR. (I kid, I kid, but they are pretty cool.) So, hit me! Title, author, why you think I'd enjoy it (if you're so inclined...). Whatever you want to include to help convince me to read it. Suggest as many as you like! Yay!

BONUS QUESTION: If you could see me LARPing as any character from books, TV, movies, comics, or other media, who would it be? Why?

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Emma Lorelai Elizabeth

My Current Dilemma in Song Form

([profile] darkoni42, I hope this gets me bonus points somehow)

It's supposed to end after the song, I'm not sure why it doesn't. Enh, oh well.

(Warning: Links may contain spoilers)

Who should I be?
There's so many sides to me.
I could be gorgeous or poor,
A queen or a whore.
It's all up up to me.
So who should I be?
Who could I be?
Who should I be?

I could be Lale the assassin,
But Azula'd make me proud!
Or I could become girl!Locke Lamora
Though I dunno if gender-swap is allowed.

Who should I be?
There's so many sides to me.
I could be a Melisande, a Karla,
An Emma, a Vin.
Ass-kicking girls who all like to win!

Who should I be?
It's all up to me,
Who should I be?

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Standing With Planned Parenthood

Okay, so there's the PP post going around my f-list; I'm proud to have been able to start a few threads of it myself. Anyway, as I was going to buy myself an orange V-gift (and the P-flag rhino), I stopped and realized that it might be better sent as a gift to someone. But, dammit, I want the "I Stand with PP" v-gift on MY profile page. Sure, I could send someone else the gift (like any of the people reposting it on their lists), but what if I didn't get one back? MY PROFILE PAGE MIGHT NOT SHOW HOW MUCH I LOVE PLANNED PARENTHOOD! But what if a BUNCH of people sent me the gifts? My profile page would look awesome, yes, but I'd feel bad if I didn't return the favor and I don't have all the monies. And then some OTHER poor person's profile might look unloved.

Truly, this was a conundrum of mind-bending proportions. OMG WHAT TO DO?!??!!?!?1111ONE

All joking aside, I decided to set up this post where people can ping in and offer to sponsor someone's PP v-gift in the $1, $5, and $10 denominations. Tag off someone, offer to swap V-gifts, and voila! We all get v-gifts, our profile pages are shiny, and Planned Parenthood gets lots of money.

It's that last one that means the most.
proper child management

Help Us Support Planned Parenthood

Originally posted by tinylegacies at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood
Originally posted by theljstaff at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood

Join us in standing up for reproductive health and education. Planned Parenthood, the organization that delivers reproductive health care, sex education and information to millions of people worldwide, has come under fire in the U.S. lately, with many politicians on both state and federal level seeking to end funding (and in a few cases succeeding).

During the month of May, you can send a specially designed Planned Parenthood vgift to your friends to help support this cause. (And if you need someone to send it to, frank is always happy to receive gifts!) There are three variations ($1, $5 and $10) for you to choose from, but they'd all look good on your profile when your friends know that you stand by something so important.


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